It’s after school vacation right now where I live (Philippines) and I have a mission where I want to learn as much mathematics as I can before school starts again (in a fun curious way ok just to clarify). I have a very rigid and long school system (9-10 hours of school +assignments…) so unfortunately when I first started trying to learn independently during school, I would get tired fast and my consistency was not great. But I still held up pretty well and have not stayed static.
This might be weird to mention and might be better fit for a psychology subreddit, but I am also feeling the effects of an inflated ego whenever I do these things and I really want to get rid of it. It’s not exactly powerful and all encompassing in my learning and I still have the curiosity, but I feel it in the back of my head like an annoying rat. Always making comparisons and actually trying to put me down funnily enough (via expectation). It’s probably because I am learning math ahead of my grade and I have a reputation of getting super gassed up and cheered on by SOME classmates. Just wanna ask if this is a common thing?
I am currently living off of ChatGPT, websites, and YouTube videos as my main source of learning, but I’m a little nervous that my sources aren’t all that reliable. Textbooks are expensive and there isn’t a library I can go to in the province. All I have is my phone, notebooks, paper, and will. Can I still do it?