Sorry, I'll write a little bit so that you have context of me, to maybe help me
Ever since I was introduced to math, I was always the best at it. I did simple algebraic equations like no time. I loved doing them. In higher classes I went into a bunch of competitions, winning some. Things slowed a little bit in 7th grade. I was then introduced to physics, and I'm a be honest, at first I was a C student. But curiosity got the better of me, and I started learning learning physics in vacation. By the time I went back to class, I was already way ahead of the class. Curiosity got to me again and I started learning ahead. By the time I finished middle school, I already had all highschool physics done withand finished three regional competitions. But then bad things started happening.
When in 2nd grade of highschool, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I'm not going to delve into it. It's very complicated. But math and physics were still my top subjects. But I started to struggle with basic algebra. People way worse in math were calculating it way faster than me. I tried olympics. And I failed. I was a few points away from qualifying. And then high school finals came. 93% from normal math level. Nice. And then. 13% from advanced math... and 52% from physics... somehow, with this poor results, I got onto one of the most prestigious universities in the country. And I feel lost. I feel so stupid on there. I struggle with basic algebra. I write horribly. There always is someone better then me at something. And the worst thing. I think I lost mt passion. Because of this damn dissease. But I still have hope. Maybe I can get back. Find this light again. I've seen what top tier math brings, and honestly, I'm not interested. But I just want to become an engineer. I'll be submiting some of the work I have done. If anybody knows how to help. Please tell me something. Please...
