Is the grass really greener?

I’m an engineer. During my teen years I found a very strong passion for math and physics and had firm intentions on becoming a mathematician. I used to get home from school, go to the library and spend the afternoon learning math. By the time I was finishing highschool I’d already learned most engineering mathematics and physics and then some pure maths as well. I was already doing some college level pure maths too.

But I had very little confidence and felt I wasn’t good enough to be great and went to electrical engineering, which I felt was the coolest engineering and with a good job market( I was correct, EE is super hot right now)

Fast forward a few years, I am working in the aerospace sector with a good career prospects, good work and solid pay but godamnit if I don’t dream of being a mathematician every single day of my life.

Be honest, is the grass really that green? Or do any of you think I made the right call. Is studying maths just as good as being a mathematician?

Author: Relevant-Cash-7270